What would you change?

People say they wldn't change a thing, even if they could... But there are times when I think i'd have liked to do a lot of things different if i could.

It really starts on a daily basis. You know, there is this 10 minute period jus' before you're falling asleep, your mind is recapping the day's events for you... And that's when I'm thinking to myself- " Damn, I wish I hadn't said that to him", "Godd, Did I have to run into her today, of all days?!?". I'm thinkin' of better(belated) witticisms I could have said or wishing i hadn't lost my temper, patting myself on my back for the good things I did, thanking god for the large amount of brains he's bestowed on me :) , cursing me for making a fool of myself etc etc. And I'm dreaming up perfect fairy tale endings to everything I began, that day.

It's in this period of silent contemplation, that I luxuriate in my happy thoughts; These moments of silence also reveal to me - all my guilt; And all that I'd like to do different. It's the time of deepest appreciation for all in life and confrontation. And this is when I see who I want to be and what I want to change in my life. Once it's in my head, it's really bt saying the right magic words. ....If only I knew what they were !?! :)

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